In this dream, there was some sort of huge parade. I kept getting lost in an enormous crowd. I had the sense that I was with people I knew (friends, family), but I kept losing sight of them.
In the dream I had a boyfriend, but he was no one I really knew or rather, he may have been an amalgam of bits and pieces of several different people. The parade ended at a huge mansion that I suppose was something like the Playboy Mansion. Several rooms were set up with long tables set with white table cloths and fine china, silverware. Here was a fancy dinner party, but while this was going on, there was also entertainment: several very beautiful young women either skimpily dressed or naked and dancing erotically. All of the men were transfixed, including my dream boyfriend.
I seemed to be the only "ordinary" woman around and I became very depressed. I decided I was going to kill myself. I found a bathroom and decided how I was going to do it. I decided against cutting myself and tried to figure out how many pills I would need to take in order to do it right.
(By the way, I am NOT suicidal at all in the waking world, so I found this dream extremely disturbing.)
I went up to the roof, where I encountered a blond woman, one of the "bunnies" I suppose. She seemed actually concerned about me. I think she found my boyfriend, because in the next part of the dream he was with me in a kitchen and kissing me. It felt like to me he was only doing this out of duty, not because he was actually worried about me or even in love with me.
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